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What I didn't do today, and what I did

Things I didn't do today:

Rake the leaves off the lawn
Wash the windows
Repaint a wall in the basement 
Fix the compost bin
Go to a movie or a concert or a lecture
Clean out the closets
Work on writing
Go to the temple

Things I did do today:
Got a massage
Went grocery shopping
Made and canned applesauce (8 pints)
Did laundry
Cleaned three bathrooms
Dropped off the vacuum for a tune-up

Sometimes I focus too much on the things I think I 'should' do, or make unrealistic expectations for my weekends. Sometimes it's better to take a good look at what I've actually accomplished instead.

Thousand Oaks

I'm embarrassed to admit this, but my siblings and I used to make fun of the gun warning signs that hung in our school. There were bright yellow signs in every classroom with the phone number of a hotline for reporting weapons at school. They said "See a gun? Save a life! Say something!", and for some reason we thought the Spanish translation was hilarious. We'd randomly turn to each other and blurt "¿Has visto una pistola? ¡Salva una vida!"
This was, of course, before Columbine and before so many other mass shootings, many of them in schools. True, there had been some other random crimes, like the shooting at a McDonalds in San Ysidro when I was little, but for some reason we felt safe at school. This is ironic, because the reason why there were yellow signs in every classroom was the gang violence that plagued our school and community. Our campus was a closed campus, we had a police officer assigned to school, and there were random metal detector checks ev…

My Daybook

I did this post ten years ago, and thought it would be fun to do again

I am wearing khaki pants, a cream-colored shirt with navy stripes, and a red cardigan.

I am readingThe Secret History by Donna Tartt and Between the World and Me by Ta-Nehisi Coates. Also trying to read the whole Book of Mormon before the end of the year.

I am hearing the hum of the dishwasher and the washing machine.

Learning all the time that I should be more thoughtful in my actions and not so quick to judge others.

I am thankful for the great community that I live in.

I am hoping that Little Dude gets better for tomorrow, and that if it's a stomach virus, the rest of us can avoid getting it.

From the kitchen tonight came a crustless spinach quiche. It was really delicious. S-Boogie is on a limited chewing diet for a few weeks so we've been creative with healthy soft foods.

Bringing beauty to my home by recently buying some new chairs for the living room. It's my first experience buying brand new living…

Tiny Tuesday Thought

Tonight I re-read a cover letter I wrote four years ago when I applied for a different position at the library where I work. At the time, I had only been in my current job for about eighteen months, but had been wanting to work in another department and move up the ladder a bit. I still feel that way, and was re-reading the letter while writing a new one for a different position that has opened up. As I was reading the letter, I realized how much I've changed and how much I have learned since that time. I was upset not to get hired in the different position and thought I was qualified, and I'm not completely convinced I wasn't, but it was amazing to me to see how much more I know now. It was a good reminder to me of why it is important to stay humble and to remember that there are always opportunities to grow and change.

What is a week-end?

Today at work I had the 'what did you do this weekend?' conversation with two different people, and none of us could remember anything that had happened. Apparently the first weekend in November is not exciting for anyone. I didn't have the kids on Friday night because Saturday was Mr. Fob's birthday and he wanted to celebrate with them. I got home late because I stopped for groceries after work, and then I just watched a few episodes of a TV show on Netflix. I've been really binging on crime shows this year; I have a lot of movies I'd love to watch, but keep coming back to television instead.

Saturday morning P.Bibby had a rehearsal for a play she is in at school later this week. They had asked parents to come help make things for the set, so Little Dude and I stayed for a few hours to construct paper palm trees and paint cardboard grass. We all came home and had lunch, and I prodded people into doing a few chores like putting away laundry. Then we went over to…

A Prayer Story

Although I mostly love social media, one of the few things that gets me down is when single friends of mine start dating. It's so stupid and one of the things I dislike about myself, but I always feel bad when people I know manage to find a special someone. Especially if they have gotten divorced since I have--it's been seven years for me and I still feel like I'm waiting for something to happen. So many other people make it seem so easy! I feel bad even typing this, because I'm sure one of my friends is going to read it and feel bad, and that is not what I want to have happen. They aren't doing anything wrong at all, and I'm mostly happy for them. I'm just a little sad for me.

I wrote a post about this several years ago over at Segullah, which touches on the mixed feelings I have about being single and alone. I had a hard time dating in high school and college too, although when I was 21 it was a lot easier to be optimistic about my chances because I had a …

I don't like my car

I got in a car accident on January 2nd. It was the last day of my break before going back to work and I wanted to start it out by going to the temple. Right after turning left off one big street onto another smaller one, I saw a car start to turn left out of a parking lot off to my right. As I was thinking "I'm going to hit them", while applying my brakes, I ran right into their car just behind the driver's side. For some reason my air bag didn't go off (I was driving fairly slowly at that point), and my face whacked right into the steering wheel. My glasses went flying off over into the passenger side of the car, after gouging a chunk out of my nose. For a minute I just sat there, shaking, while my nose was bleeding all over my new coat that I'd just bought. I'd never been in a car accident before and was unable to think of what to do next. I will forever be grateful to the man who came running over to my car, helped me shut it off and climb out the pass…